It had to seem that way, for the success of the group. From the moment I met Gaku and Tenn, I knew I wanted to be worthy of standing beside them, even though I wasn't flawless, or a professional like them.
[ not to mention, compared to kids like IDOLiSH7, they were managed strictly - they were prestigious. they were put on a pedestal, and placed in a glass case. they were told to lead as kings do. ]
I worked for a long, long time. Wondering if I wasn't lying to my fans, putting forth the image that I did... wondering if my existence wasn't just a source of entertainment, rather than something that belonged to me.
[ from many people, it might sounds like a sad thing to recount. but ryuu is resilient and proud. ]
But even if I was embarrassed, or shy, even when I struggled, I got around to liking my role. I challenged myself, time and time again. My as myself, and me with TRIGGER - they're the same. I realized that it didn't affect my songs, or my dancing. I didn't sing to be loved, I sang for TRIGGER to be loved... I wanted to convey that with everything that I had, that the fans' feeling should go beyond just what they think about me.
[He love so much, for him to smile like that when she said that.]
Ryuu... [He did it just for them. Made these sacrifices and trained so hard. And here she knows, he had zero self-worth when it came to standing beside Gaku and Tenn, until after all. Why does that sound so familiar? Ah, because she is like that. She, so self-critical.]
Are you a socialite? You love TRIGGER so much you're willing to be that man? And is that why you now do--...?
[She gestures behind them to the cut out facing away. He is soft, but he drips with honey. She was listening to him so seriously that she concentrated only on him. But once she asked this? Her cheeks start to colour, she starts to tense, and she tries to keep her eyes forward. He had always been incredibly attractive. And to be something you're not, that takes talent. For one to act. Sure, hard work helped, but it helped finetune it.
Perhaps she had been assuming this all wrong. Ryuu was not just kind and wholesome. There are some things you can't just fake it without it being obvious. He already is sexy.]
I'm not a socialite. [ whereas his voice had been brimming with passion, it now mellows, though it's no less fond for having to admit such a thing. he even chuckles. ] Or a playboy... people have gotten to know me as I am with my friends and family here. I treasure it.
[ following her gesture to the cut out, ryuu actually becomes less tense. ]
But I want everyone to know that honest side of me too. I don't know if I'm really suited to the work still, but it's part of what I do as a member of TRIGGER. It's...
[ his fingers flex, determined. ]
It's an important time for us back home. I want to continue, no matter what.
Ryuu, a rich socialite and a playboy...[She clears her throat as she imagines it. Once, she would've thought it hilarious, but then he was able to portray one so well it brings a blush to her cheeks. Good heavens. No wonder he said he has done villain roles before.] A-anyway. I'm glad that you were able to relax here, at least.
[She scratches her cheeks, before she shuffles closer. And then holds out her hand.]
Ryuu, you are doing this for TRIGGER, and in the end, it is your own decision. While we're here, howeve, is there a kind of idol you want to present yourself as? [Even just hypothetically. She's curious.]
Do not worry about not suiting the work. I...um. [One hand pushes her hair behind her ear.] Was a little in shock when I saw, but my heart beats wildly! That...that is what you wanted from your fans, no?
[ never let it be said that ryuu doesn't face down challenges with everything that he's worth. the weight of his image, the expectations of his fans, his own anxieties and shortcomings. against all odds he's come out on the other side of the fires as diamonds do. ]
That is what I want my fans to experience... maybe not out of shock, though!
[ his smile remains, and he reaches to accept her hand. ]
Our manager, Anesagi, told me this once. Idols sing with their hearts. If your heart is hurt or weak, it changes the sound of your voice. More than that, it changes the air around you. She had faith in me, that my heart wouldn't break. No matter what I felt like, I always found myself singing truthfully.
I like myself as I am. TRIGGER wouldn't be what it is without the three of us exactly how we are, too.
[ his gaze lifts, apologetic around the fondness. ]
Sorry... that I didn't tell you about all this sooner.
[He wants them to all die, that's it then! Die because they exploded from his gap eroi. She's calmer now, at least, not about to destroy anything from the realisation that Ryuu is not just attractive, but a bit too attractive that she's wondering what kind of god blessed him and what's the catch.]
Oh, they'd certainly be experiencing that. I can guarantee it. [Because she also ran here after finding herself in some kind of fan battle. And a blur, where she ended up with too many items. Hmm.
Still, she squeezes his hand warmly. Ryuu, in the end, is still Ryuu. He just has hopes and dreams like everyone else, and he utilises his talents to the best of his ability.
She clasps her hands around his, before she stands to move in front of him. And shakes her head.]
What is there to apologise, about, Ryuu? You only told me more of yourself for me to learn. All I know is that, you're not just one of the nicest people I have ever met, but you're talented too. I know I am not the most easiest of people to deal with when I get flustered. [Translation: Tsundere.] You managed to calm me down and explain everything when you did not have to. I'll support you with all I can, and you simply need to be yourself around me.
[ the catch is that mosttimes, he has one brain cell. and hell if he knows where it is. ]
I feel as though it's my responsibility, you know? It's not like home. There are things I can explain here to keep anyone from finding out so suddenly, like you did. [ his grip tightens thoughtfully. he's got u, tsuntsun. ] It was so much like home though, that I might've gotten carried away and forgot I can do that now...
[ with a glance towards the ominously-shaped cut out, his brows furrow. ]
And you've supported me a lot already...! You even bought mens' underwear...
[Oh my god, no wonder she has to wear it around her neck to protect it.]
It's not meant to be your responsibility. I mean...yes, I may have overreacted. [Thank you Ryuu, please control this tsuntsun before she explodes.] Aha...I mean, it is a little like home, and you're also taking the entertainment industry by storm! Just like home?
[She turns to the cut-out...and she sinks a little forward, with a long whining noise escaping the back of her throat.]
I can't believe I bought mens' underwear and I don't even need it! Ryuu, is it in your size? N-not that I should be...asking for your size.
[ what a cute noise honestly... he feels a little bad but also. it's so endearing. with a light slip of his fingers from hers, he reaches up to drop a hand into her hair, mussing it fondly. ]
Merch lines are dangerous! Before you know it, things end up this way... [ of course, he's gotten better at the mutual flustering, but he's not immune. stiffening, his cheeks flare. ] I, It's okay! I don't think it's that strange, all things considered... ah -
[He's cuter with his reaction of mussing up her hair!! She's still whining but she can't help but lift her head to receive his headpats. Since they feel nice. That that she would say that out loud, but shh.[
Y-you have a lot of merchandise, a-already as well! What a strong presence you have and...a-ah...
[As soon as he blushes, she does so even harder and...oh, so it should be fine...to ask for his size.] I-I suppose I'll have to learn eventually in order to make your outfits b-but...
I, I'd be happy to! You're right about needing my sizes anyway, and you can't go without after all -
[ well, you can, but he doesn't typically, so it's fine!! brand name skivvies accepted! falling silent, he seems to consider something else at length. ]
Um... do you want me to try and return those for you? [ he gestures at the jewelry. ] I know they couldn't have been inexpensive!
[ and he'd feel horrible if someone got swindled into something with his name on it?! ]
A-ay, yes! I mean, i-it's...well, I will have to measure you one day for accuracy, but anyway!
[She clears her throat again. Takes a deep breath. Is her face still red? It's still red. It's so red because she doesn't even have to imagine him in the brand name underoos considering his advertisement was everywhere.
Although, as red as she is, she blinks at his comment, and lifts a hand to gently touch them, first the necklace, then the earrings.]
Hmm... [Considering she doesn't remember how she fought for them too.] They were not. But...I think I will keep these. As a souvenir. To your success, that you managed to advertise something so expensive that it would end up on my person, and without my recollection. [IT WAS A BLUR.]
I may not look it but I've gotten really good at standing still for measurements!! It used to tickle and I'd get embarrassed easily, so...
[ he feels bad if he's the only one with a red face?! he has to spill the tea on himself!
but that aside, the fact that she needs a moment to think about it, the motions she makes to really weigh the trinkets - he can't help but feel a little warm. sure, endorsements are about money in the end, but it doesn't mean he can't have pride in it. it would be an insult to sen's belief in him to question it too, wouldn't it? ]
In that case, ah... can I just say it looks good on you, then?
I-I mean! I'll try not to tickle you! I have really good hands [...Really good hands. She realised how that sounded after she said it.
TIME TO. PRETEND SHE DIDN'T SAY THAT.
She clears her throat and at least pretends to pose, showing off an earring by cupping her hand just behind it so it stands out. Although it probably stands out more against her black hair. It's true, she believes in him. So she can say that these really expensive jewels are just a measure of his success. Also, take that fans, she got them first. Somehow.]
Thank you...perhaps one day, I can wear them to one of your very stylish events.
[She flushes a little because that's really the only time she could. They're quite extravagant.]
It is your own hard work that got you this far, I am only...cheer squad?
If you did that, I'm sure you'd be the star instead of me.
[ a laugh, but not one of disbelief. ]
I don't mind that though. As much as my fans and the people who support me cheer me on, I want to be someone who does that for them too. We can cheer each other on.
[She immediately shakes her head, even with the jingle of gems.]
N-no, surely not! I do not have your charisma.
[Although, for him to want to support if that was the case.] Very well, let's. Although, you will be supporting me for very different things when it comes to being in the spotlight. [Since it's not happening here, but in her case, it's politics. Very boring.]
You do! By watching over me, you do have that. Trust me.
[ maybe it's not enough for him to just say it, but it's hard for someone like him to describe the effect of the people who turn their eyes and ears and hearts towards him. at least with words. ]
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It had to seem that way, for the success of the group. From the moment I met Gaku and Tenn, I knew I wanted to be worthy of standing beside them, even though I wasn't flawless, or a professional like them.
[ not to mention, compared to kids like IDOLiSH7, they were managed strictly - they were prestigious. they were put on a pedestal, and placed in a glass case. they were told to lead as kings do. ]
I worked for a long, long time. Wondering if I wasn't lying to my fans, putting forth the image that I did... wondering if my existence wasn't just a source of entertainment, rather than something that belonged to me.
[ from many people, it might sounds like a sad thing to recount. but ryuu is resilient and proud. ]
But even if I was embarrassed, or shy, even when I struggled, I got around to liking my role. I challenged myself, time and time again. My as myself, and me with TRIGGER - they're the same. I realized that it didn't affect my songs, or my dancing. I didn't sing to be loved, I sang for TRIGGER to be loved... I wanted to convey that with everything that I had, that the fans' feeling should go beyond just what they think about me.
I am who I am because I love TRIGGER.
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Ryuu... [He did it just for them. Made these sacrifices and trained so hard. And here she knows, he had zero self-worth when it came to standing beside Gaku and Tenn, until after all. Why does that sound so familiar? Ah, because she is like that. She, so self-critical.]
Are you a socialite? You love TRIGGER so much you're willing to be that man? And is that why you now do--...?
[She gestures behind them to the cut out facing away. He is soft, but he drips with honey. She was listening to him so seriously that she concentrated only on him. But once she asked this? Her cheeks start to colour, she starts to tense, and she tries to keep her eyes forward. He had always been incredibly attractive. And to be something you're not, that takes talent. For one to act. Sure, hard work helped, but it helped finetune it.
Perhaps she had been assuming this all wrong. Ryuu was not just kind and wholesome. There are some things you can't just fake it without it being obvious. He already is sexy.]
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[ following her gesture to the cut out, ryuu actually becomes less tense. ]
But I want everyone to know that honest side of me too. I don't know if I'm really suited to the work still, but it's part of what I do as a member of TRIGGER. It's...
[ his fingers flex, determined. ]
It's an important time for us back home. I want to continue, no matter what.
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[She scratches her cheeks, before she shuffles closer. And then holds out her hand.]
Ryuu, you are doing this for TRIGGER, and in the end, it is your own decision. While we're here, howeve, is there a kind of idol you want to present yourself as? [Even just hypothetically. She's curious.]
Do not worry about not suiting the work. I...um. [One hand pushes her hair behind her ear.] Was a little in shock when I saw, but my heart beats wildly! That...that is what you wanted from your fans, no?
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That is what I want my fans to experience... maybe not out of shock, though!
[ his smile remains, and he reaches to accept her hand. ]
Our manager, Anesagi, told me this once. Idols sing with their hearts. If your heart is hurt or weak, it changes the sound of your voice. More than that, it changes the air around you. She had faith in me, that my heart wouldn't break. No matter what I felt like, I always found myself singing truthfully.
I like myself as I am. TRIGGER wouldn't be what it is without the three of us exactly how we are, too.
[ his gaze lifts, apologetic around the fondness. ]
Sorry... that I didn't tell you about all this sooner.
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Oh, they'd certainly be experiencing that. I can guarantee it. [Because she also ran here after finding herself in some kind of fan battle. And a blur, where she ended up with too many items. Hmm.
Still, she squeezes his hand warmly. Ryuu, in the end, is still Ryuu. He just has hopes and dreams like everyone else, and he utilises his talents to the best of his ability.
She clasps her hands around his, before she stands to move in front of him. And shakes her head.]
What is there to apologise, about, Ryuu? You only told me more of yourself for me to learn. All I know is that, you're not just one of the nicest people I have ever met, but you're talented too. I know I am not the most easiest of people to deal with when I get flustered. [Translation: Tsundere.] You managed to calm me down and explain everything when you did not have to. I'll support you with all I can, and you simply need to be yourself around me.
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I feel as though it's my responsibility, you know? It's not like home. There are things I can explain here to keep anyone from finding out so suddenly, like you did. [ his grip tightens thoughtfully. he's got u, tsuntsun. ] It was so much like home though, that I might've gotten carried away and forgot I can do that now...
[ with a glance towards the ominously-shaped cut out, his brows furrow. ]
And you've supported me a lot already...! You even bought mens' underwear...
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It's not meant to be your responsibility. I mean...yes, I may have overreacted. [Thank you Ryuu, please control this tsuntsun before she explodes.] Aha...I mean, it is a little like home, and you're also taking the entertainment industry by storm! Just like home?
[She turns to the cut-out...and she sinks a little forward, with a long whining noise escaping the back of her throat.]
I can't believe I bought mens' underwear and I don't even need it! Ryuu, is it in your size? N-not that I should be...asking for your size.
[SHE'S SO EMBARRASSED SHE WANTS TO DROWN.]
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Merch lines are dangerous! Before you know it, things end up this way... [ of course, he's gotten better at the mutual flustering, but he's not immune. stiffening, his cheeks flare. ] I, It's okay! I don't think it's that strange, all things considered... ah -
I wouldn't want them to to go to waste, besides!
[ THEY'RE BRAND NAME SKIVVIES... ]
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Y-you have a lot of merchandise, a-already as well! What a strong presence you have and...a-ah...
[As soon as he blushes, she does so even harder and...oh, so it should be fine...to ask for his size.] I-I suppose I'll have to learn eventually in order to make your outfits b-but...
[THEY'RE BRAND NAME SKIVVIES...]
S-so long as they fit, please, keep them.
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[ well, you can, but he doesn't typically, so it's fine!! brand name skivvies accepted! falling silent, he seems to consider something else at length. ]
Um... do you want me to try and return those for you? [ he gestures at the jewelry. ] I know they couldn't have been inexpensive!
[ and he'd feel horrible if someone got swindled into something with his name on it?! ]
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[She clears her throat again. Takes a deep breath. Is her face still red? It's still red. It's so red because she doesn't even have to imagine him in the brand name underoos considering his advertisement was everywhere.
Although, as red as she is, she blinks at his comment, and lifts a hand to gently touch them, first the necklace, then the earrings.]
Hmm... [Considering she doesn't remember how she fought for them too.] They were not. But...I think I will keep these. As a souvenir. To your success, that you managed to advertise something so expensive that it would end up on my person, and without my recollection. [IT WAS A BLUR.]
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[ he feels bad if he's the only one with a red face?! he has to spill the tea on himself!
but that aside, the fact that she needs a moment to think about it, the motions she makes to really weigh the trinkets - he can't help but feel a little warm. sure, endorsements are about money in the end, but it doesn't mean he can't have pride in it. it would be an insult to sen's belief in him to question it too, wouldn't it? ]
In that case, ah... can I just say it looks good on you, then?
[ he squeezes his armful of things. ]
Thank you, for supporting me this far.
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TIME TO. PRETEND SHE DIDN'T SAY THAT.
She clears her throat and at least pretends to pose, showing off an earring by cupping her hand just behind it so it stands out. Although it probably stands out more against her black hair. It's true, she believes in him. So she can say that these really expensive jewels are just a measure of his success. Also, take that fans, she got them first. Somehow.]
Thank you...perhaps one day, I can wear them to one of your very stylish events.
[She flushes a little because that's really the only time she could. They're quite extravagant.]
It is your own hard work that got you this far, I am only...cheer squad?
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[ a laugh, but not one of disbelief. ]
I don't mind that though. As much as my fans and the people who support me cheer me on, I want to be someone who does that for them too. We can cheer each other on.
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N-no, surely not! I do not have your charisma.
[Although, for him to want to support if that was the case.] Very well, let's. Although, you will be supporting me for very different things when it comes to being in the spotlight. [Since it's not happening here, but in her case, it's politics. Very boring.]
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[ maybe it's not enough for him to just say it, but it's hard for someone like him to describe the effect of the people who turn their eyes and ears and hearts towards him. at least with words. ]
I don't mind! Everything has its place, I think.
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Imagine being supported by someone like you, everyone else would be jealous. [JOKES.]