[ it's one of those moments where ryuu manages his worldliness elegantly enough, thinking to himself - it's not a lost cause. most things never are, to him, but he sees a lot of good in what could be, even if it's a lot of hard work, or will take struggling to achieve. maybe if he knew where shuu was coming from...
eichi's voice breaks through his reverie, and his palms slide on the ledge as he shifts his stance and leans away from it. without a second thought, he reaches one of his arms out. ]
[How simple. Without a thought, without worry or hesitation, he can offer that to him. Ryuu doesn't stop to think about causing potential jealousy, or enabling childish behavior, or anything else. It's just a request for a hug, and an unconditional acceptance.
Eichi thinks he's needed that for a long time. He hasn't really thought about it until now.
But he moves without a word, wrapping his arms around Ryuu and pressing his face straight into his chest. Wholesomely, for once. He just wants to hug, to curl his fingers into the back of his shirt, to breathe him in and not think about anything else.
Without worrying about being "weak" or "needy" or "undeserving," for just this quick moment... Is that fine? Maybe it's fine.]
[ it's fine. at least that's what the air about him says, when ryuu doesn't say anything at all. it's always been difficult to find the right words... sliding back and forth between overthinking and saying the first thing that comes to mind. but something like this is easier, more true to his real nature. it's just that opportunity comes along so rarely, to sink into a moment like this without having to steal it, to wonder who's looking.
his arms wind around eichi and pull him into a tight squeeze, blotting out the sounds of the city below and the windy, moonless sky above. of course there are worries, things for him to think about. he can't erase the hurtful things that have been said. this is just the more immediate thing ryuu can do to help.
tucking his face into his hair, ryuu closes his eyes and relaxes. he doesn't want to part so quickly either, gaining as much from his as eichi is. ]
[Eichi doesn't know how long he actually stays like this, but it feels like forever. Minutes, maybe...? Each second stretches, but Ryuu is warm, the cold air doesn't hit him as hard, and he smells nice, familiar. It's comforting. Much more comforting than the flowers he took his upset out on just now— to be honest, he's still not sure if he should mourn the crushed petals of one bloom or not.
He breathes slowly, steadily, and once he feels better, he turns his face a little in the hug to be able to speak clearer, though he doesn't let go.]
Of all the people I've hugged, yours have to be the best, Ryuu-kun. You put your whole heart into it... so it doesn't feel as though I'm merely placing my hands against the glass of a window.
[He squeezes his own arms around him a slight bit more. Things will work out. He can find himself thinking it more and more, like this. How simple... Maybe it's a little stupid. Or maybe it's that he was being stupid before?
But Shuu is always like this, he thinks, so at the very least he feels a little more calm on it, in the moment.]
Even if I'm feeling a bit better now, I don't want to let go. ♪
[ his breathing comes deep and steady, though a chuckle echoes through it a moment after eichi's arms tighten, making the warmth trapped between them bloom anew. ryuu gives him a return squeeze and a nuzzle to emphasize the closeness, the affection he feels at its simplest. ]
You don't have to, then. This is what it's supposed to feel like.
[ not to accuse anyone of hugging wrong, but. he loves this sensation too much to just let it go.
and as if responding to those unspoken thoughts, those ounces of tension sheared away by the way they touch, he tips his chin and lowers his voice. ]
[There's still plenty that he's afraid of. Losing all of these meaningful relationships, being left behind, alone. Having none of this matter. That they're all empty promises, every one of them, like he's learned from past experiences, but... it's unlike him to stay focused on one sad thought so long that he can't move forward.
Rather, isn't it in the middle of fears like those that he moves forward the most? He just has to make sure that he doesn't make the same mistakes. That he doesn't take anything for granted.]
It's nice to not have to wear that mask of "Emperor"... [Relying on people like this... He wouldn't have been able to imagine it before. But he's becoming more and more okay with allowing these feelings. He kisses Ryuu where he's buried his face in his chest, and the chroma that spreads from it feels like he's making his own flowers, here.]
I'll continue to rely on you to pull me out of these gloomy thoughts, Ryuu-kun. I feel completely at ease, now. ♪
[Even if the next days will be difficult, and even if his worries still give him nightmares... He can realize the importance of peace in the moment. It will last. Bit by bit.]
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eichi's voice breaks through his reverie, and his palms slide on the ledge as he shifts his stance and leans away from it. without a second thought, he reaches one of his arms out. ]
Of course it's fine.
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Eichi thinks he's needed that for a long time. He hasn't really thought about it until now.
But he moves without a word, wrapping his arms around Ryuu and pressing his face straight into his chest. Wholesomely, for once. He just wants to hug, to curl his fingers into the back of his shirt, to breathe him in and not think about anything else.
Without worrying about being "weak" or "needy" or "undeserving," for just this quick moment... Is that fine? Maybe it's fine.]
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his arms wind around eichi and pull him into a tight squeeze, blotting out the sounds of the city below and the windy, moonless sky above. of course there are worries, things for him to think about. he can't erase the hurtful things that have been said. this is just the more immediate thing ryuu can do to help.
tucking his face into his hair, ryuu closes his eyes and relaxes. he doesn't want to part so quickly either, gaining as much from his as eichi is. ]
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He breathes slowly, steadily, and once he feels better, he turns his face a little in the hug to be able to speak clearer, though he doesn't let go.]
Of all the people I've hugged, yours have to be the best, Ryuu-kun. You put your whole heart into it... so it doesn't feel as though I'm merely placing my hands against the glass of a window.
[He squeezes his own arms around him a slight bit more. Things will work out. He can find himself thinking it more and more, like this. How simple... Maybe it's a little stupid. Or maybe it's that he was being stupid before?
But Shuu is always like this, he thinks, so at the very least he feels a little more calm on it, in the moment.]
Even if I'm feeling a bit better now, I don't want to let go. ♪
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You don't have to, then. This is what it's supposed to feel like.
[ not to accuse anyone of hugging wrong, but. he loves this sensation too much to just let it go.
and as if responding to those unspoken thoughts, those ounces of tension sheared away by the way they touch, he tips his chin and lowers his voice. ]
Bit by bit... I'm sure things will turn out okay.
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[There's still plenty that he's afraid of. Losing all of these meaningful relationships, being left behind, alone. Having none of this matter. That they're all empty promises, every one of them, like he's learned from past experiences, but... it's unlike him to stay focused on one sad thought so long that he can't move forward.
Rather, isn't it in the middle of fears like those that he moves forward the most? He just has to make sure that he doesn't make the same mistakes. That he doesn't take anything for granted.]
It's nice to not have to wear that mask of "Emperor"... [Relying on people like this... He wouldn't have been able to imagine it before. But he's becoming more and more okay with allowing these feelings. He kisses Ryuu where he's buried his face in his chest, and the chroma that spreads from it feels like he's making his own flowers, here.]
I'll continue to rely on you to pull me out of these gloomy thoughts, Ryuu-kun. I feel completely at ease, now. ♪
[Even if the next days will be difficult, and even if his worries still give him nightmares... He can realize the importance of peace in the moment. It will last. Bit by bit.]