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[The tug draws out a laugh so genuine that it goes higher than Eichi means for it to, and he doesn't even mind it. His hand presses flat against Ryuu's back and he tucks his face into the taller man's collarbone, one leg curving up slightly more and nudging between Ryuu's again.]

I won't. The last thing I want is for you to move further away.

[He just sort of says that, and then thinks about it in the silence after. It's not an awkward silence, but it's heavy with something, he thinks. Something warm and inviting, but enough to inspire nervousness, too. He keeps his eyes closed because it feels right to, more than any attempt at falling back asleep just yet. His heart is pounding.]

...It feels as though it would be impossible to have any nightmares, like this.

[ what a good sound. he's sure he won't forget that, like the way he'd remember a favorite song.

and it makes him really happy to hear he's wanted so close after all, the wide span of his chest barely doing anything to contain his heartbeat. with his arms wrapped around him, ryuu's knee bends to cross their legs at the ankle. he gives up on anything but leaning into the moment, burying his nose in eichi's hair with a contentment that's so new all he can do is bask in it for however long it lasts. ]

It does feel that way. There's not even darkness when I close my eyes.

[ just pulsating light shapes. ]

[ The way Ryuu nuzzles even into his hair is what really gets Eichi, somehow. His chest feels tight, but the rest of him feels light, and he forgets to breathe for a few seconds because of it. It really doesn’t feel dark at all. He doesn’t care what time it is, or what else he’d been thinking of doing today. It was nothing important. He can keep time for this.

He hums in quiet agreement, focusing on steadying his breathing and calming his heart. Like that, he begins to drift off again, but thoughts keep stirring him back up. One makes it to his lips in a sleepy mumble. ]

Say, is it fine if I call you Ryuu-kun?

[ His thoughts had been all over before reaching that. A nickname. He’d already been assuming so much to be calling him Ryuunosuke-kun anyway, but... it feels better to ask. Even if he’s falling back and forth between sleep and some sort of embarrassed and affectionate excitement. ]

[ a chuckle, pressed into that same spot his nose draws against. ryuu smiles. ]

I don't mind. Were you thinking about something like that?

[ ryuu can wear propriety well enough when he has to, and he's far from mannerless, but sometimes, the strict things don't suit him. maybe that's just the country boy in him, the person who favors warmth and simplicity. it helps now, when his heart's going and going, and he doesn't want to open his eyes either, but letting eichi's body break its restlessness on him seems better.

it's part of his duality - knowing what effect he has without truly knowing. ]

Mm.

[He had been thinking about it. It and many other things. His fingers curl more into the back of Ryuu's shirt, and he takes a slow breath, warmth blooming in his chest. His face still feels faintly warm, Ryuu's chuckle only working to make it last. There's been so much else that he's getting to enjoy after never having done it before. He wants to give a nickname, instead of taking so long that it's too late... Instead of anything too serious.]

I'm sure you've heard it before, but it's cute, isn't it? Ryuu-kun. I thought I wanted it to feel like we're close... you know?

[ it's so warm. every brush and shift and pull closer makes him feel it that much more, and he's glad it's eichi - that all the chill is being chased out. ]

It is cute! I think I prefer feeling familiar like that, actually.

[ ryuu takes better to unfamiliar waters than most, but something like this, even in its stunning newness is enough to give him strength and keep his sensitive heart afloat. he's relaxing into the embrace, a smile written into every one of his angles. ]

I like it... thank you.

Hehe... [More giggle than anything else, and still pressed into Ryuu, he's... happy. So happy he doesn't know what to do about it.]

Thank you.

[Like this, it's easy to drift off again even with the pounding in his chest. He really was tired. Exhausted... He knew he had needed to stop like this, but it felt impossible to find the time, and even when he did, lonely thoughts threatened to swallow him up. But here, it's like an escape.

At least until he's rested more than enough, and the excitement of being in this position wakes him again. He doesn't want to give it up, though, so he barely moves at all, just lifting his head the slightest bit to try and peek at Ryuu's face and see if he's awake.]

[ he might not sleep as soundly as eichi does, but ryuu is content to lay next to him and let his thoughts fade in and out. it's such a peaceful rhythm that it's fine, whether he's quietly awake or pulled back into dozing. he's used to such precise, busy days that this feels indulgent, letting time pass as it does without a care. maybe it won't happen like this everyday, but just this once is enough to make it feel special.

fondness tugs his thoughts this way and that, like calm waves in a harbor, until he feels the shift up beneath his chin. ryuu moves his hold, knuckles drawing across eichi's back. ]

Good morning.

[ a huff. it must be well into the day, by now. he lifts his chin and untucks his face from eichi's hair, laying it back down lower so he can look him in the eye. ]

How was your nap?

[ see, he has good ideas. ]

[ H... he’s awake!! He really just stayed like that for him while he napped... Eichi’s face goes faintly pink, and feeling like he has nowhere to hide it, he doesn’t know what to do. ]

It was nice... [ A pause, and he moves the hand that’s between them to his own head. Good lord, he thought he could adjust to Ryuu being so charming, but he’s really struggling. Is this normal?? ]

I’m feeling a bit lightheaded, though. [ For reasons. He’s going to die. ] I hope it wasn’t uncomfortable for you?

[ it's not normal.

then again, ryuu can't be blamed for not wanting to move when something so precious was taking place in his arms, can he? and not like he was really awake the whole time! ]

I've been comfortable. I think I fell back asleep for a while too...

[ his heart and breathing have certainly slowed down. ]

Ah, good.

[So he was able to get more sleep, too. A lazy afternoon for the both of them, huh? And he's fine with that? Just his company, and the silence? Eichi can't help but smile, the silence stretching out as that warmth stays like a glow. His hand moves away from his own head and to Ryuu's face, instead, brushing some of his hair away from it so he can properly admire him. It's really hard to resist, when it feels like there's a pull in the air itself. His other hand smooths lower on Ryuu's back, and for the moment, he's just quiet, lost in thought.]

[ it's amazing, how such a light touch can reach so deep. his eyes flicker shut with a sigh and he leans into it. a slight, wakeful stretch of his back beneath eichi's roaming fingers has the angle of his arm readjusting around his waist, one long leg drawing upwards slightly to rub calves, the tiniest spark of motion. he hums, low and reverberating. ]

Your hands are really warm now.

[ not that he would have pulled away even if they weren't. ]

What are you thinking about?

It's all thanks to you.

[These warm hands. This nice feeling, too, that exists between them and he's sure must be mutual. There's no way it can't be, right? Right?

Even if his heart dances nervously, there's a comfort in Ryuu's presence that always makes him relax into it moments later. Confidence returns to him, even if it's half feigned, and it's a giddy sort of feeling that makes it impossible to stop smiling. Their legs brushing, Ryuu stretching and leaning at his touch— he wants more of that. He's someone who's always growing bored and doing things to combat that, but he's sure he'd never grow bored of this.]

Hmm... [Still, he draws out a thoughtful hum at the question, eyes sparkling with something mischievous as his fingers trail down the side of Ryuu's face.]

That's a secret. ♪

[ ryuu's expression smooths in surprise first, then falls as if he wasn't expecting to be spurned. it's only partly, though - there's a playfulness still in his demeanor. he may react to things genuinely, but no one said he didn't also have a defiant streak. ]

That's not very fair!

[ his laugh is quiet, more breath than anything. a pause falls over him, a brief, wondering thing that gives way to ryuu tightening his arms, seeking that flush in the end.

eichi can probably feel it now in his face, the burn settling on his cheeks beneath his fingers. ]

Then, can I tell you what I'm thinking instead?

[ it's rare for him to feel this confident, even as private as the moment is. tilting his face aside, his lips find the delicate heel of eichi's palm, a sweet touch. ]

[He holds his breath through the moment, his whole body warming at the sweet gesture. It's what he was hoping for, of course, and what he never expected he'd get. It's laughable, and there's no way Eichi would say it aloud, but this is like a fairy tale, isn't it? These sweet, tender moments between two people from the moment they meet... he thought they were only for tall tales.]

It seems like we were thinking the same thing, after all.

[He smiles a little more, eyes dropping to Ryuu's lips while he draws his fingers back along his face again, slipping into his hair. His face moves with it, closing what little distance they have.]

Though, I think you missed?

[He breathes a laugh of his own, just before he presses their lips together sweetly.]

[ it finally tips in that moment, all the heated sincerity pooled atop his heartbeat. ryuu eases into the gesture by capturing his lips like he wants to inhale the sound of his laugh and taste his smile. already, it's different than the first or even the second time, like he'd just been... waiting, to do this again, when it seemed like it would be right. he's fallen into it so deeply and quickly, but he's never been someone for half measures, when he really wants his colors to show.

ryuu's trying to subdue his breath but it's so hard when his heart's beating so fast, through the sleep haze and the meandering words and touches that made him sure he wanted to do this again. it's enough to make his chest ache pleasantly, like it's full. that's what measures him, keeping the touch of his lips exploratory.

he's still not pulling away entirely, even to speak, instead pressing the words between shallow kisses. ]

Sorry, I won't miss again.

[ it's for certain, now. he really likes this sensation. ]

[His breath is stolen away by the immediate way Ryuu moves into the kiss, and his heart does a flip at the words that follow. How perfect. Moments like this are written about, sung about, shown in movies and plays and everywhere except real life— at least, that's what Eichi thought. But there's this spark, a flame that Eichi had been trying to cradle and protect in his hands, that's growing steadily and beautifully. A connection beyond words, or... something like that?

He laughs again between the kisses, a happy, clearly relieved sound that buries itself against Ryuu's mouth. Eichi's response is different, too. He's eager, all of that excitement finally able to move out and meet Ryuu halfway, and it's clear in the way he kisses to taste. His hand moves further along Ryuu's back, and into his hair, and he can't help the grin that crosses his lips between. This is all so genuine. It's playful, and light, but it's so warm too, hot— He's going to treasure this.

Swiping his thumb over the part of skin near Ryuu's ear, he deepens the next kiss a little further with a hum, his body nudging closer. Hopefully Ryuu will keep them from rolling off the couch, because Eichi doesn't care too much about that, right now.]

[ ryuu takes up a good bulk of the space on the couch even laying on his side, but with the way his arms curve around eichi's slender frame, he's not in any danger of taking a topple that'd interrupt this moment. it's more like he's steadily pressing all the remaining spaces between them out. he's inviting the closeness eichi is after by nudging further into him, embracing it - his heartbeat thumping against a chest other than his own is so stunning that he wants to keep experiencing it like this, just a little more.

so he accepts the kisses as they grow deeper and longer, lips parting to give eichi's mouth a sweet stroke with his tongue. the shape of his smile shines through the motion, enjoying all the other little touches... the fingers in his hair, the warm caress of breath across his face in between kisses.

it's enough to want to fully sink into it but also like there's more to chase every time eichi's fingers brush across a new spot on him. a pleased noise hitches in the back of his throat, broad palms skirting up his back and massaging into muscle, keeping that newfound warmth stoked. he wants to be able to do that too. it can't be only him feeling this good, can it? ]

[ How much longer can they do this? How much can he push it further? Questions like these aren’t adding any unnecessary anxiety, this time, but a playful excitement that has him wanting to indulge. To enjoy the warmth of lips and tongues and wandering hands without a fear of a potential misstep ruining anything. He feels so alive, so human, and he lets his knee draw a little further up between Ryuu’s legs, gasping softly as warmth spreads. ]

Napping wasn’t such a bad idea at all...

[ He mutters it against Ryuu’s lips, eyes opening just enough to meet his, to catch a glimpse of color before he’s shutting them again and kissing. Each time their lips part and rejoin, he inches it further, explores more. His fingers match, winding themselves more solidly in his hair, pushing up at the cloth of Ryuu’s shirt so he can swipe over skin at the small of his back with a laugh. Playfully, he whispers. ]

I’m feeling energized.

[ that tone of voice spilling across his lips makes ryuu shiver, no matter how hot the back of his neck suddenly feels. it's like his whole body is rippling from the friction alone. the feel of eichi's leg working up between his thighs is enough for him to arch into it with a gasp of his own, steadied by the presence of his touch on his back. it almost embarrasses him, how reactive he is.

but it feels too special to keep sharing space this way, and he chuckles breathlessly into the following kisses to recenter himself, leaning into the way his tongue coaxes deeper, all heat and contours. ryuu savors his taste before breaking it, gaze glittering. ]

I can tell! I'm not even the one who needed a nap, and I feel like I can't keep up with you at all, suddenly...

[ of course, he's just poking fun at himself considering how amazing he thinks eichi is. ryuu leans back in, brushing noses, lips trailing from the corner of his mouth to his cheek to stay grounded and not get too carried away just yet. ]

But I'm happy if I could help. I wonder if it's okay to say that I really like this?

[ of course, the rush of chroma is nice, but for ryuu, so is the closeness, however inexperienced. ]

[For a brief moment, Ryuu's joking comment about keeping up causes Eichi to worry, but the way he leans back in wipes that fear away. Quietly, he sucks in and holds a breath at the way their noses brush, and then the soft lips on his hot cheek. His hands still, just in case, and he takes the moment to catch his breath once he remembers to breathe, laughing sheepishly.]

I'd be worried if you didn't. I'm enjoying this quite a bit, though I'm not sure if I should be allowed to, and if I found you weren't, I'd be disappointed, you know? On top of that, people would quickly jump to say things like "That horrible guy took advantage of you!" and I'd hate that, you know, so...

[Ah, he's rambling, he thinks. He slips his hand from Ryuu's hair to the base of his neck, tracing a star there idly as he closes his eyes again. Breaths still shallow, but body still warm, he hums. His heart is really hammering, irregular beats and all.]

To be honest, I'm using every bit of self-restraint that I can manage, right now... Am I too much, even still?

[He's not really comfortable with how anxious he is saying that, but that's sort of exciting in another way, too. Right? Ryuu feels like the safe sort of person he can put his heart on the line with and ask things he's afraid to hear the answer to.]

- hah, it's like I thought. You're a really intense person...

[ not just in situations like this either, is what he means, like there's more to eichi's shape than this. just that impression of a soft fingertip tracing the nature of his thoughts on him is enough to make him smile. not only that, but it's as if his pulse is tracing on him too, angle for angle, across every space they touch. it's hard to even think straight, so it's lucky for ryuu the words are already in there, somewhere. ]

...but you're thinking about the effect you have on others all the while too, aren't you?

[ of course, thinking on it and acting on it are two different things, but it's enough to make ryuu comfortable through the heat that threatens to spill over. his lips, his legs, the entire length of his back... they're all aching, but not in a bad way. just a push, and it'll overflow. ]

So I'd defend you, if I ever heard anything like that. It's just my own insecurities making me have weak thoughts... knowing you said you're okay with me, but still wondering if I'll really be good enough... ahh, see, now I'm embarrassed, saying it out loud...!

[ a laugh like he can't believe himself. it's incredibly heartfelt, when he probably ought to just let his body continue to talk. he just overthinks, when it's something he can do of his own accord, when there's no rules or images to hold up on those shoulders of his.

all of it is new. ]

"Good enough"...?

[In the time Ryuu took speaking, Eichi has withdrawn his hands to cup his face, instead, thumbs swiping over Ryuu's cheeks as he presses their foreheads together lightly. His eyes are open now, and he's smiling so much that he's not sure he could stop if he tried. He'd defend him... Hearing that alone is enough to make his heart soar. Ah, he's so silly, being pleased over something like that.]

How many times should I kiss you to have those out of place worries properly vanish? I can't help but wonder something like that. My heart is racing, you know...? The last time we met, I was left thinking of you for days. Your radiance, your kind heart, the taste of your lips and that warm embrace of yours... I've been longing to fall right back into it all.

[Meanwhile, Eichi has no problem saying these embarrassing things, it seems. He's already feeling the embarrassment, but if Ryuu is embarrassed first, it makes it okay? He slides his hands back again, wrapping around Ryuu's shoulders and burying his face into his neck.]

If we're both wanting something but worrying about the other being disappointed, isn't the solution to reach out and grab it?

[ it really does make his heart want to burst, hearing things like that - that someone has been, is thinking of him that way. for a long moment ryuu is content to sink into the hug and listen as if the closeness of those words is being tattooed on him. he has to take a breath. it goes down and comes back up somewhat shaky, but that's just him not being very good at containing his emotions.

something equally as embarrassing would probably be apt, but he can't hide his laughter any better than he can his feelings, nosing against eichi's temple. ]

So that's why you kept my clothes.

[ inelegant, but honest and lighthearted enough to puncture any tension he was hanging onto. ryuu nods anyway, pulse ticked up in his veins. he can't imagine that'll it calm any, now. ]

But you're right. I've never let being nervous stop me before, when I felt it was important... so I think instead I feel better to tell you to not hold back.

[Does he have to call him out like that? Eichi laughs, half shocked that it came up so bluntly at all, but the feeling that comes from it is so freeing. Tension has vanished completely from the moment, with this understanding, and this permission, and he's warm for it, slipping back to get a look at Ryuu's face.]

Now it's my turn to be embarrassed...

[And his face is a bit pink, but he doesn't feel like he has to worry about that. He moves one of his hands back to Ryuu's cheek again, holding it tenderly as he leans in for another kiss. Sweet, deep and slow, lips lingering even as he's paused before he pulls back again, eyes focused.]

With your permission, then, I'll keep going just as I'd like to, so... [Drawing his hand down from Ryuu's face and over his neck, his collarbone, his shirt and chest and then lightly pushing, he smiles and leans forward once more, into him.]

If we're going to stay right here, then could you shift onto your back? [Or they can move. He doesn't sound picky.]

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